August 7th

is the series finale
of Queer as Folk.

never before have i been
so depressed about something so odd.

it's only a show.
but what QAF did was far more
than just appear every sunday at 10pm

it's sentimental.
before I was out
I would rent QAF
and sneak it down in the basement
and watch it on very low volume

it was wonderful to me
to see these stories
and realize that it was ok

it may be taboo or promiscuous
but it was ok to be that way
and with it came love
love is something that is rarely shown
when the world talked about gays
what it is to be one.

it's stereotypical,
but it covers all of the stereotypes

now, i don't want to relive that
that sneakiness.
the basement.
that sucked.

so what is it exactly?

it's not the sex
though there's plenty of it
and it is nice
for the reason that
you don't often see it

they called it groundbreaking
and it was
it is

these past few episodes
leading up to the big finale
are so emotional
i'm getting sucked right in
and it's all I think about
like this shit is happening to me

surreal.

fucked up.

but if it must go, it must go
its playing the sex and the city card
too much of a good thing
gets redundant

fine.
go.